Piece of Shit #9

It's all about me...I guess.

It's true, your 20s are supposed to be a decade of self-exploration and socially accepted selfishness. For the most part this has characterized the last 8 years of my life and truthfully could probably still define my daily existence now. However as I round the bend to 30 in the next year and a half I cant fathom approaching a place where it starts to be about somebody or something else. I'm not sure how to feel about that and I could be making an inaccurate assumption but where is that wash of a feeling that tells you it's time to make things about something else, that it's time to think differently? Maybe it's living in New York, a place that attracts self-motivation and large personal ambitions, but I don't see most people in their late 20's looking for something outside of themselves or even hinting that they might slowly start to peek around. In fact I see more and more people older than me pushing that transition further and further back. And from where I stand right now I'm relieved because I too am not ready to cross that bridge; but if we keep pushing it back and keep pushing it back, do we risk missing that opportunity all together? I wish I had this answer and true I wish I had a lot of answers but for the moment I'll just have to wonder about this piece of shit.